Archive for June, 2010

army of the pure
June 30, 2010

Today we watched a documentary in history about the Lashka-e-Toiba terrorist attack in Mumbai.
we discussed the events shortly after.
and one girl in my class was inquiring about the shootings in the café.
‘but they only killed eleven, didn’t they?’ she clarified.
I quickly counted the amount of people in the room.
twelve.
someone could open fire and kill the same amount of people (eleven) in our classroom, and only one would be left. Wounded. Surrounded by the lifeless, innocent victims of an act of terrorism.
I yearn for a day where people don’t have to ask casually ‘but they only killed eleven?’
and I yearn for a day where people don’t control other people, and drive them to martyrdom.
the day where these martyrs don’t have to fearfully ask over the phone ‘do we keep them, or do we shoot them?’
and even more than that, I yearn for a day where those who are emotional about this confrontation (of victims of terrorist attacks), aren’t questioned as to why they are so sullen and… and so… numb about their realization.

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mistakes
June 28, 2010

I’ve made some pretty bad choices in my life.
I’m talking really dumb ‘what the fuck were you thinking?’ sort of choices.
-In prep, I wanted to sit right in front of the teacher and a boy called jake sat there instead. I went to go sit next to Tim (my childhood crush) and so Jake (seeing me) then moved; saying I could sit in front of the teacher. Little did Jake know he had left his watch in the spot. So what did I do? I stole it. Sadly, my mother found out.  As did Tim.
-And once when a teacher sat on a desk, I muttered to my friend under my breath ‘she’s sitting on the desk…. It’s gonna break!’ this wouldn’t have been so bad, if the teacher wasn’t overweight. She apparently also had really good hearing, because she proceeded to very loudly accuse me of being the worst bully in the whole of year two.
-More recently I dated two guys at the same time… Who were best friends.
-And even more recently than that I wore a pair of shoes that had no bottoms on them. In the rain. All day.
But nothing, ladies and gentlemen, could really have prepared me for the mistake I made just this weekend.

Of all the over commitments, ridiculous flings, revengeful schemes and poor judgments, this has got to be one of the stupidest things I have done.
Catelyn, what the hell have you gotten yourself into?

see
June 28, 2010

love… ?
love is coincidental. 
love is another part of the undeniable probability in this world.
you can’t control it… or look for it.
it looks for us
it controls us.

bek is pinging like a pong
June 27, 2010

Catelyn: bek you need to get out of my room. I need to study. I need to focus.
Bek: NO
Catelyn: Do you want me to fail year eleven?
Bek: YES! YOU CAN FAIL WITH ME! And thennn… we would do year eleven again. We would be with all the year tens. We would be with HOLLY GARDNER! We could get away with doing slutty things… like… like… BEING FOUR FINGERED!

I then drove her out of my room
she had to sit in the corridor, resulting in anabelle also leaving my room
a few seconds I hear
“CATELYNNNNN… I’M BEING DRAGGED… Catelyn… Catelyn. CATELYN I’M BEING DRAGGED!”

pretty life
June 27, 2010

i don’t believe you have lived, until you have counted your freckles.
particularly on your arms and face.

there are 5 on my right cheek…
             just in case you were wondering

you
June 27, 2010

i love you, and i’ll miss you

calling angels, walk me through this one
June 27, 2010

“I guess it’s hard for people who are so used to things the way they are – even if they’re bad – to change. ‘Cause they kind of give up. And when they do, everybody kind of loses.”
-Pay it Forward

another rant about politics
June 26, 2010

so as all of you are aware we have a new prime minister.
and i’m actually really really happy about the way in which this came about.
sounds selfish i know, because K-Rudd was so sad about it.
but this is why i am so happy:

there is this problem we have in australia,
and all over the world really.
particularly bad in some countries actually.
it’s where a leader becomes so obsessed about control that they forget the reason why they are leading.
a leader’s job isn’t to do whatever they want when they want.
nor is it to stamp out any suggestions and possibilities whenever suggestions are made.
and it isn’t to stay in power for as long as possible.
a leader recognises that they must guide and they must also serve.

rudd did a brave thing when he stood down.
instead of letting the labor party be elected out because people no longer wanted him;
he stood down and let someone else take over.
could you imagine howard doing that at the peak of his career? or bush?
i don’t think so.
see true leadership isn’t who is taking over a country and when.
a true leader is one who cares about their country, enough to sacrifice one of the best opportunities they have ever had.
what rudd did wasn’t just courageous, it was enough to make me proud of australian politics again.
he recognised his own fault, and didn’t punish the country because of it.
and that my friends, makes me truly admire him.

advice is a form of nostalgia
June 26, 2010

“The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

 

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

 

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

 -The Sunscreen Song (Everybody’s Free)

i awoke, only to find my lungs empty
June 26, 2010

“I’ve become, the simple souvenir of someone’s kill
Like the sea, I’m constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul
As if the great divide could swallow me whole”
– City and Colour